The enemy uses our passion for being in God's will against us. He hisses, “Who do you think you are? Did God really call you here? If this is where you’re supposed to be, why is it so hard?” Dear Christian, stand your ground, hold onto that shield of faith, and resist the enemy's questions. This 5-part strategy will help you remain strong in your calling.

5-part Strategy for Christians questioning their Calling

“I’m beginning to think this was all a mistake,” I told my husband.

He stood firm, recounting how God had spoken through His Word and through other believers. Every detail had lined up and everywhere we turned we had seen His answer to prayer. We were where we were supposed to be. This was not a mistake.

As I listened to my husband, I was transported back two years. He was right. Back then it was exhilarating. We had a renewed sense of purpose and couldn’t wait to discover more of the “why” behind what God was clearly orchestrating.

But now things were hard. Really hard. And when things are hard, the flesh screams, “This can’t be right.”

Conversations like this popped up now and then, but each time we encouraged one another by retelling the story of how we got to that point. It was all God. And if God had led us to it, He would lead us through it.


“Sometimes I wrestle with my demons; Other times we just snuggle”

And then came the knock at my door. Well, more like the door of my heart.

I should have recognized the visitor, but I didn’t. He looked nothing like what I expected. He spoke with a soft whisper as he simply said, “Did God really say …?

At first, my answer was, “Of course he did. It was clear as day.” And I shooed him off my sidewalk.

And then he came back. With a low voice, he questioned, “Are you certain God said …?

I entertained the question a little longer since my recollection was a bit dimmer than before. “I think he did.” And I invited him to sit in the rocker on my porch and talk about it.

He returned later that winter. Light was in short supply during that season, but I could see his shadowy figure approaching the threshold.

Listen,” he hissed, “We both know God didn’t really call you here. In fact, I wonder if He even cares that things are so hard.” It was now dark outside and dark in my heart. As I stood there struggling to remember why he was wrong, he slithered in behind me.

And just like that, the crafty little beast now had full access to my home.

It took a while for me to realize he was there. Where his questions ended and my own began is fuzzy. It doesn’t really matter who asked what, I guess. The outcome was doubt. Doubt produced discouragement. And once discouragement had taken root, there was a full harvest of rotten fruit in my life.

And more questions. They seemed to breed faster than two bunnies as my youngest likes to say.

“Was I just kidding myself to think I can make a difference?”
“Who am I to think He would actually ‘call’ me to something?”
“If this is where I’m supposed to be, why is it so hard?”

From there, the days became wearisome and my sense of purpose and passion faded. I preached the truth to myself, but the artery that carried truth from my head to my heart had become clogged.

I questioned in the dark what God told us in the light.

Spring cleaning and Pest control

Eventually, the Holy Spirit went on a spring-cleaning rampage.

Once the film was removed from the windows of my heart, I could see clearly. And I couldn’t believe how easily I had questioned. The snake was no match for the Spirit’s fluffy duster and he wasn’t a fan of the light, so he slithered out the back door.

Fast-forward a few years. He tried it again the other day. He knocked on my door and when I opened it, there he stood. In the shadows. Hissing at me from behind the bush. Same song, thousandth verse:

“What do you think you’re doing?
God didn’t call you to this.
Who do you think you are?
You made it all up.
This is way more than you are equipped to handle.
Come on now, Did God really say …”

But this time, I was more prepared.

Have I mentioned that my husband bought me a .380? Lock-and-load baby.

The enmity surged and I declared, “Oh. No. You. Din’t.” “You just messed with the wrong woman. I have a blog and I know how to use it.

You see, I’ve had this post brewing on the back burner for over year.
But I kept thinking, “There’s so much written on this subject. Why would anyone need to hear my thoughts?

Well, maybe they don’t. But what if they do?
What if revealing the enemy’s favorite tactics in my life helps someone else fight stronger, resist harder, and hold on?

Maybe that’s you, fellow soldier. If so, join me around the table and let’s talk strategy for a moment. Bring your shield.

5-part Strategy to Resist and Stand

1-Know thy enemy (Because thy enemy knows you)

I’ve learned the enemy uses our passion for being in God’s will against us. One of the things Christians value most is mission. We want (NEED) to know our obedience matters to the kingdom.

We want to be good soldiers. But since part of the deal is that we walk by faith, not by sight, we don’t get flashing arrows in the sky saying, “You are here. And this is right.” Thus, when the battle rages, we’re tempted to wonder if we wandered into a war that wasn’t necessary.

And so the first step is to recognize this vulnerability. And realize the enemy knows about it as well.

If he can cause us to doubt our calling, he can undermine our conviction to persevere and neutralize our efforts. He has perfected the art of making the believer question his purpose.

After all. He can’t steal our salvation, so the consolation prizes are our passion, our peace, and our joy at serving in the kingdom.


2-Test the questions

Some things never change. Check it out. Genesis 3. The enemy slithers up and “simply” asks a question, “Did God really say …?” You know the rest of the story. Eve took the bait and took a bite.

It’s a tale as old as time. Literally. (And I don’t mean the proverbial “literally.”) Satan’s line of questioning caused Eve to doubt God’s authority.

“But I don’t question God’s authority,” you say. Yep. That’s what I said.
I’m a Bible teacher after all. I believe in the all-sufficient, completely accurate, inspired WORD. God gets the final say on everything. Even if when I’m doing it wrong, I don’t question that it’s wrong. Because God said so.


There’s this thing called “good.” And somehow, I seem to believe that I’m a better judge of it than God. But God is not just the author of good, He is the AUTHORITY on good.

When things aren’t good according to my definition and I begin to doubt if God called me to it in the first place, then I am effectively questioning his authority to declare what is good.

Hello. #NotGood

It’s a sneaky sneak attack. Questions can get in the back door of our minds where frontal assaults would meet resistance.

This is because most questions ARE good. They bring clarity. And even if they don’t end in answers, we grow and develop by simply considering them.

Except when they don’t. Because sometimes they won’t. (Dr. Seuss)

Some questions are not worth my time or yours. So I’m learning to test the question before I even contemplate the answer.

If you are questioning right now, I invite you to question the question.
Why has it come up? Will answering it lead to clarity or confusion?
Is it just a strength sucker and dark rabbit hole?
And who is asking?

Remember: God is not a God of confusion (1 Corinthians 14:33). That may help you determine the source.


3-Stay out of court

“Be sober-minded; be watchful.
Your adversary the devil
prowls around like a roaring lion,
seeking someone to devour.”
(1 Peter 5:8)

The word “adversary” is the Greek word for a legal opponent and “devil” means “slanderer.” Think about that combination.

What do lawyers do?
Ask questions.
And if they are unscrupulous, they lead the witness, reframe the facts, and flat out confuse those trying to get to the truth.

And what does a slanderer do?
Lie. Accuse.
Tarnish your reputation and cause others to doubt your worth.

The enemy has his own kangaroo court. Here he questions our motives and argues against our qualifications. He brings up past sins as evidence for why we have no business attempting to represent God or tell His story.

Who do you think you are?” he shouts from across the courtroom.

Peter specifically admonishes us to “be watchful.”
Don’t get served with one of those “surprise summonses.”

Recognize the charges. Have you been trying to defend yourself against accusations like this?
Don’t approach the bench for permission to step down. Just run. Out the back door.

You don’t belong in the enemy’s court. It’s nothing but a distraction.


4-Don’t be surprised

It comes down to this:
Just because you’re drawing fire doesn’t mean you are out of God’s will.

In fact, it may be validation that you are defending a strategic location.

Think about all the “s’s” in Ephesians 6:11-12.

  • schemeS
  • rulerS
  • authoritieS
  • cosmic powerS
  • spiritual forceS
  • in the heavenly placeS

The war is real and the enemy has plural everything: plans, powers, places. So don’t be surprised that it’s hard and that everywhere you turn there is a struggle. But above all remember:

The enemy’s plural is no match for God’s singular.

One God. Greater. Greater is HE that is in you. (1 John 4:4) And don’t you think He is big enough to lead you where He wants you?


5-Hold your position

Did you get marching orders? Did you pray, seek godly counsel, and base the decision on Scriptural truth?

And now things seem to be going nowhere. Or worse, falling apart.
Or maybe you’re just exhausted and feeling overwhelmed?
And you’re wondering if you were called to this after all?

Don’t retreat yet. Hang on a little while longer. Pray. Confess to a trusted friend or advisor your doubts. Search Scripture. Ask God for wisdom.

Until you’re certain God is calling you to something new,
keep doing the last thing He told you.

Even though it doesn’t seem good.
Even though the adversary accuses.
Even though the battle rages.

And remember you have an arsenal full of the most powerful weapons. Put them to use while you test the questions and survey the battle.

“In all circumstances take up the shield of faith,
with which you can extinguish all the flaming darts of the evil one;
and take the helmet of salvation,
and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God,
praying at all times in the Spirit,
with all prayer and supplication.”
(Ephesians 6:16-18)

And then …

If you get a knock on the door and open to find the creature hissing at you from the shadows … Lock-and-Load, baby.


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Comments 72

  1. lisaclarkkeith2014

    Wow! I really needed this! I just finished reading “Fervent” and I still got caught up in the devil’s little hiss. Thank you for stepping up and stepping out to remind me that the enemy doesn’t always, in fact rarely, attacks us head on. He sneaks up and whispers in our ear, or he looks and acts sometimes like everything we think we’ve ever wanted. Now, I have to step up and act to slam the door in his face. I’m looking forward to reading more from you! Blessings to you!

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  2. Ashley

    THANK YOU for writing this! It was just what my heart needed! I found this on Pinterest after having a serious discussion with the enemy about how my life and my family are not his to toy with.. My husband lost his job last year, and we have been drowning. A few months ago, he got a new job, which required us to move a few hours away from our family and friends. It has been extremely difficult. Not only is he hating the job, but it seems as though the bills are piling up even more than before.. I know God orchestrated this move, and I had such a peace about the entire situation, but the past few weeks have caused serious doubt and discouragement.. I don’t know why He moved us here, but I KNOW He did, and that’s all that matters. God has been teaching me so much this past week about faith and trust, and this blog post has confirmed everything He has been showing me. I love how you said that God’s singular is greater than the enemy’s plural! I couldn’t stop the tears! This has been so trying, and you have played a small part in what God has been trying to show me, so thank you again!

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      What a journey you are on, sister. I recognize so much of what you describe in battling doubt and discouragement. The battle to let what we KNOW trump what we FEEL is vicious.

      I had forgotten I wrote so much of this and your comment caused me to revisit these words. Thank you for that. I needed them again as well.

      Many blessings!

  3. Bree

    Did you know that God uses Pinterest? Well that’s how He brought me here, to the message my heart so needed to hear, one that helps to drown out the noise of the insistent knocking. As I prepare to take on a new job, with a lofty title and more responsibilities than I’ve ever managed, I’m finding myself entangled in doubt’s trap more than I imagined and much more than I’d like. I so appreciate your goals and the examples you provide for each, that show that they are able to be achieved.

    Thank you for these words & for kicking the hiss to the curb!

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      Wow. Thank you for letting me know. I know the doubt well. Hang in there through the transition in your new job. If it’s worth doing, you can expect resistance!

  4. Annette

    Wow, thank you for having the courage to post this blog. It is exactly what I have been praying about. Yes there are many people who write similar topics but none write it the same as you. God used your style to reach me and for that I am grateful to Him and grateful for you that you listened more to the voice of the Holy Spirit than to the evil one. God bless you = )

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      I’m a little speechless at your comment. I’m so aware lately of the need to be obedient in the moment and that’s what this post was ~ obedience. Hearing you affirm its value in your journey is deeply encouraging to me.

      Thank you so much for taking the time to write. I pray you are inspired to keep stepping into what God has laid out for you and that for the moment.

      We need each other to remind one another of the truth because it seems the enemy continues to hiss louder and louder.

      I’m thankful you are here.

  5. Amanda

    Thank you for being sensitive to the Spirit! We’ve already gone through such an amazing journey, that no one can believe it, except that God moved, but today I’m low in faith, I’m worrying about how everything moved so fast in the beginning, but now we seem to be just floating slowly along with no real huge impacts! The questions are rolling in! “What was it that God wanted us here for?” “There are more important people than us here, can God really mean for us to be here?” But after reading you blog, I can feel my faith rising! God didn’t bring us here for no reason, as He definitely,100%, without a shadow of doubt, called us here! Thank you!

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      What an inspiration you are in your journey and resolve to trust God.

      Thank you for letting me know these few words inspired you. What a blessing to be used to encourage another weary traveler. As you saw in this post, I know this road well!

      If you’re not on the email list, I hope you’ll join me there. I share things in those emails I don’t post on the blog and I’m learning much from this current phase of the journey!


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  6. Jenn

    You wrote: {“…But what if they do?… What if revealing the enemy’s favorite tactics in my life helps someone else fight stronger, resist harder, and hold on?”…}

    I am that person… I needed this right now! I’ve been waiting on God for something for 10 years… and now, when I thought it would finally come, it still hasn’t… and the doubts are creeping in. I’ve (belatedly) seen the enemy’s sneaky ways several times in the last couple of years… belatedly heard that old-time question, “Did God REALLY say…?” And every time I finally recognize it, I laugh… and then get mad… because I fell for it… again. (shaking my head)

    But thankfully God keeps showing me the truth… and He’s asking me to keep holding on.

    Hilarious, too — my #oneword for 2016 is “GREATER” — along with the verse, 1 John 4:4 … which you quoted in this post. :P God is just too funny, sometimes, don’t you think? I love it. :)

    Thanks, again! You’ve been a true blessing to me, today!

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      Comments like yours wash over me in a way that leaves me almost speechless.

      One of my deepest encounters with grace is when I God takes my ashes and use them to encourage others. That’s beauty.

      Thank you for taking the time to let me know. You have blessed me in ways you can’t imagine today.

  7. Jennifer | The Deliberate Mom

    Wow. This is powerful stuff Christi. As I read this I felt myself nodding and thinking yes, I’ve let those doubts and the thief of joy get on a soapbox. I needed these words and these strategies so much.

    I will be praying and reading scripture to seek comfort and direction (and even though I’ve been doing that, before I get to my knees again, I’ll kick the unwanted guest out the door).

    Thank you so much for sharing.

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  8. Groundbreakers

    Why is it each of us seems to believe we are the only ones who begin to question our callings? You were a true encouragement and inspiration to me this morning, when I really needed it. God also used you and this post to give me confirmation of something He has been placing on my heart recently. Thank you for your obedience in writing this post, and for all you do in Kingdom work!

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      I am so blessed to know this was a bit of encouragement to you. What a gift YOU gave me. You know firsthand that this is why we do what we do, so thank you for telling me those precious words. Thank you!

  9. Florence Achama

    Yep… some good strategies and pointers here. I think the more you know yourself the easier it become to not question your calling. I find that many people have issues relating to specifics, the emphasis is on the ‘really’ as you put it in Genesis 3. Is this really what I’m supposed to be doing? Did I get a detail wrong, am I going about it the wrong way? etc as you mentioned. Thanks for this, what a blessing :)

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  10. Anonymous

    Satan is the author of confusion. We all are fighting battles of the mind in our lives to do what God calls us to do. Thank you for sharing, perfect timing for me to hear today. May the Lord bless you and your ministry.

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  11. Dana

    Your word picture of how the devil knocks and slithers in was perfect and so true. It sobered me to exactly how I allow the questions to invade and steal my peace.
    This post encouraged me so much tonight. I needed to remember what God called me to do. And it’s scary and hard… hard. And it makes me question if I’m doing the right thing. I must keep going in order to fulfill what God asked me to do! He didn’t say it would be easy.
    Thank you for this beautiful truth.

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      Thanks for letting me know this encouraged you. You are right about the scary and the hard and the questions.

      You DO have a calling and certainly a ministry and I believe the enemy would like to convince you otherwise.

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      Thank you for letting me know. If you needed to hear it, I imagine there is a struggle you are fighting. Praying for God’s strength and power to sustain you. Thank you for being here and taking the time to affirm that this was worth publishing. God bless.

  12. ann

    Funny, I looked back on 2 years of being where we were NOT supposed to be in the world sense, yet God makes all things work together for good… it’s all good! Because, sometimes Satan rushes in whispering,”how could they do this to you? And why did God let them?” But I still saw the answers were similar to what you wrote. God put me there for a reason and it’s all good for me. Thanks so much I needed this as I am in another place, where I really don’t care to be….it’s all good for me (and any place else would be wrong.)

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      You speak from such experience it sounds like. Ah, those specific whispers I know as well. Thank you for being here and for sharing your thoughts with me. This is hard stuff and it seems to help to process it together.

  13. Horace Williams Jr

    Christi… I was absolutely riveted while reading your post! I love your writing style and the imagery was fantastic! I truly believe that every believer can relate to the situations of doubt you referenced. That is Satan’s tried and true weapon of choice as you mentioned. I wrote a post last month about putting on the Armor of God everyday. Your post just confirmed it! I am now a follower…it was a pleasure being introduced to you via Grace and Truth. By the way, both of my sisters went to and I believe graduated from Liberty. Thank you again for sharing some of your innermost thoughts with us. I look forward to reading more of your posts in the future. May God bless you and yours. Have a great weekend!

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      What a privilege to hear from you! Thank you for all these kind words. I’ll have to make it to your place to read your call to action with the armor! I just LOVE Grace & Truth. I have found some of the absolute best writers and friends through that community. You’re my new favorite ;) (But don’t tell the others!)

  14. dawnklinge

    I’ve been dealing with some discouragement and I’m so glad I clicked over from Arabah’s blog to read your words. Thank you! You have really encouraged me.

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      I am so sorry that discouragement has been tracking you. It has a way of sneaking in like smoke and before you know it, you feel like you are smothered. Praying for you as I type. Thanks for being here!

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      Yes! When we begin to recognize what he has discovered are his favorite tactics against us, we can be more prepared in the future. Thank you for the affirmation, Mary!

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  15. stultsmamaof4

    Hi, Christi! :) I’m stopping by here from Grace and Truth this week. I cannot tell you how much I identify with this post – just… so much. After these last few years of ministry, I’m learning more and more to recognize the enemy. But occasionally he still sneaks in without me realizing. :) This line here stood out to me: “I questioned in the dark what God told us in the light.” How often have I done that to myself, or even to others (like my husband)?! I especially appreciate tip number 2 – now that I know the enemy’s voice, I will pay more attention to the questions! Thanks for sharing with us last week.
    Jen :)

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      Thank you, Jen! I have prayed for your encouragement and provision after reading your latest post. Blessed to be a small part of sending some encouragement your way through these words! Thanks for letting me know!

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  16. sarahgirl3

    I just love your words and your heart behind them! This is great, as we are all in this position from time to time, especially as we get closer to where God wants us to be!

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  17. Kristin Hill Taylor

    “I questioned in the dark what God told us in the light.” —> Oh, I’ve been there more times than I care to admit. What a great post, as always! So glad you linked up at #ThreeWordWednesday.

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  18. loisflowers

    Christi, I loved what you’ve written (as always) and if we had a couple of hours, I could share quite a lengthy story of my own about what it’s like when you follow God’s clear call and things turn out much differently than you thought they would. Since we don’t have all that time, I just want to say how blessed I was to read all the comments from people who were so encouraged by your words. Keeping pouring yourself out, my friend. God is using you and your words in ways you may never know!

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      Lois, your words mean so much. Thank you for the affirmation, but for mostly, just being in this big ‘ole space. I love coming to your place. It feels like home… and I could handle that lengthy story. Not sure how we do a virtual coffee talk, but someday we’ll have to figure that out!

      Thank you again for the heartfelt encouragement.

  19. Dawn Boyer

    I get excited when I get to visit you because I know I will be grateful for the time spent with you here. I appreciate the way you lead with grace and transparency.

    I have to bookmark and come back with my journal, actually, because there is so much here to consider and think about, pray over and just release to the Lord.

    Hooray that your husband is building you up and holding up your hands as you stand firm and steady on the foundation He has built you upon. Praise God for that defense and shield. We all need that. We need the reminders, we need the arrows of refinement that keep us on the offensive and not the defensive, because that really is where we stand. We stand in the shadow of the Cross where the victory is already won, ( what can man do to us, right?). Sometimes I don’t feel like a winner and my faith feels flimsy but praise God for the prayers of those who see past our nearsighted vision and push us on.

    I wonder, as I write, why anyone would want to read it and since I am NOT trained to be a writer, why does it matter. And like you I question the call. But it is in there as a seed that needs to be sown and it needs to be cast away and so what if someone else has put it out there before, re-seed the truths, Christi, cause they are good and they will produce the good fruit!

    God is multiplying your harvest, girl. Keep sowing His Truth and listening to His voice. I appreciate you!

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      Dawn, I’ve learned that same sense when I look at who my neighbors are and recognize ones who have truly become some sort of virtual/heart friend. You are one of those.

      But wow, this comment is way bigger than I think my feet can walk through :) You are such a deep, thoughtful encourager. It’s truly a gift. And I feel like you pour into me across the bits and bytes in ways you can’t possibly imagine.

      Knowing you’ve questioned the call astounds me because grace simply effervesces from your spot :)

      Thank you again for this sweet honey to my soul.

  20. Leah Adams (@PointMinistries)

    Christi, what a great post! I’m in that season right now…not with my ministry, but with another very crucial area of my life. Thank you for the reminder that God did say ‘yes’ and it is His plan. Stopping by from #TellHisStory. I’m your neighbor there.

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  21. Valerie Sisco at Grace with Silk

    I read this post yesterday when someone retweeted it and it was exactly what I need to hear (and I don’t scroll through my Twitter feed all that often!) All of your words — all of them — were so insightful and thought-provoking. Why do we think that just because something gets hard, that it’s not right or that God didn’t call us there? Your words were the reminder I needed yesterday to keep believing and trusting and see what God can do. Thank you for helping me fight the doubts and hold onto my faith a little tighter!

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      Valerie, thank you for this. It’s so humbling to hear that my little loaves and fishes fed someone. God is so good to let us be a part of each others’ journeys through this medium. Thank you again for letting me know how it spoke to you!

  22. tsyoung83

    Christi, you never cease to amaze me Just when I think you can’t possibly top the last lesson you shared you go and write something like this! Incredible work my friend!

    I’m so glad you took this post off the burner and shared your wisdom because I NEEDED to hear it, every single bit of it. Wow, I fell like I might cry right now This really touched my heart.

    Unfortunately, my phone won’t let me share to my Facebook page so, I’m pinning now, and I’ll be posting this to Facebook later when I get to my computer! You are such a treasure, I just want to give you the biggest hug!!!! Blessings my friend

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      Well, if you cry, I’m going to cry for sure, dear friend. What a privilege to get to string together words that make a difference in your life. Thank you for such sweet affirmation. And I’ll take you up on that hug some day!

  23. Rosemary

    Christi, I finally got my Facebook page for my blog up and running this afternoon, thinking that I wouldn’t post,anything very substantive quite yet, and then I happened onto your post here, and WHISH, I’ve plopped this great article into “opening night” of my Facebook page. Might as well let the enemy know where we stand right at the get-go.

    Every morning on my drive to work I verbally put on every piece of my spiritual armor. Don’t dare try to get through the day without it. You see, I’m an English teacher for international students from all over the world, and while I love them with all my heart, my workplace is a conglomeration of atheists, agnostics, Buddhists, Hindus, Zoroastrians, Mormons, and Muslims, and thankfully, Christians. Sometimes when I start the 40-minute drive home, I just really need that time alone with God, with no radio, just to heal and renew because there are days when I feel like I’ve been on the frontlines. “Lord, I’m 68 years old and I need to retire, don’t you think?” And what do I get for an answer, “Until you’re certain of my call to something new, you better keep on serving in the last place that I sent you.” I would whole lots rather be in the battle and in God’s will than to leave the battle without Him.

    Thank you for writing true truth, Christi! So glad I’ve gotten to know you.

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      Rosemary, thank you for this encouragement and sharing a part of your battle with me. What an honor to make it to “opening night” over on your place :)

      I have so much respect for all you continue to work at for the Lord and am loving learning from your spunk. Yes, you may be 68 as you say, but you have more spunk than many 30-year-olds I know!

      Thank you again!

  24. Tona

    I was very encouraged by this post. I have felt the same way about somethings the Lord wanted me to do. I get those questions about are you sure He said that? Then when I don’t see the results that I thought. I should be receiving I start to feel that maybe I need to just stop maybe I didn’t hear Him correctly. But I have decided not to retreat and continue to hold fast right where I am.

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      You go, sister! Yes, don’t retreat and hold fast. But yes, I know that’s easier said than done. Glad we have fellow princess warriors to remind us of the truth when the battle rages around. Thank you for being here. You bless me!

  25. Deborah

    Christi, I was scanning a list of blogs at the end of one of Arabah Joy’s, reminding myself that I do NOT need another one to follow when I saw the title to this post. The Spirit quickened my spirit to read it. I have been in battle to answer a call that scares me, causes me to question God as to WHY would He EVER call me to such a ministry, etc. and so on….I believe you know my story. Your visitor knows where I live as well. One thing that I kept telling myself I have never had on my calling was that it had not been verified by other believers (meaning no one has come to me and said, “God is calling you to…”) but The Spirit quickened my heart when I read the 2nd sentence, realizing my Pastor has personally asked me to serve in a fill in position and I never realized it was because he has confidence that God will use me for His glory. Before I finished reading our mutual visitor was at my door. I’m trying to get all of my armor in place, my strength is weak but I’m quoting 2 Cor 12:9. And singing a song of encouragement, “He never promised that the cross would not be heavy, or the hill would not be hard to climb….He never offered victory without fighting but He said help would always come in time. Just remember when you’re standing in the valley of decision and the adversary says, ‘Give in!’; Just hold on! Our Lord will show up! And He will take you through the fire again.” (Jason Crabb’s, “Through the Fire”) Thank you for allowing God to use you to help me see I must be about my Fathers business. My fears and trepidations cannot rule me if I am going to be a soldier in His army.
    So I say, YES!, Christi! Go with your calling! I want to hear more about it!

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      Deborah, Thank you for sharing with me. What a gift you gave to my heart letting me know that these little words of mine pointed you toward our very big God and His calling for you.

      I do believe the enemy targets this vulnerability more often than we recognize.

      Praying for you now as I type these words that your newfound courage will carry you forward in this assignment. And I’m thanking God for sending you my way with these words of encouragement for me.

  26. Ruthie Gray

    What can I say? This was quite possibly your best work yet (that I have read, anyway)!
    Oh my. Where to begin. Well, any time you quote Dr. Seuss, I’m in.
    But the way you described the slithering and the lying and the court and the lock and the load – and the fact that we don’t get a guarantee that we get an A+100 just because we KNOW we were called to this. We don’t know that things will turn out right. They may turn out very wrong, according to our judgment, anyway. This so resonates with me because I fought this lie for 3 years before delving into this work. And now I’m all in but then somebody blows me out of the water again with their terrific posts (such as yourself) and I’m like WHAT THE HECK AM I EVEN DOING HERE?! But it’s just like you said, the topic has been covered, but you know what? NOBODY can say it quite like you, because nobody else IS you.
    You are you and that’s all you are. (That’s Dr. Ruth.)
    Have you ever read the book “All the Places to Go” By John Ortberg? No?
    Go. Go to Amazon now and download it on your Kindle. Or go to BAM. Just go. I read it last year and it helped me over the hump, it’s amazing.
    So I’m sorry I just went on for almost as long as your blog but I just love all of this and you.
    Signed – your homie in WV.

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      You, dear friend, are a modern day Barnabas … an encourager extraordinaire. And how you can make me do a LOL in one sentence and cause me to need to find a kleenex in the other is a gift.

      This was the most expensive piece I’ve written so far and I’m not sure I’m through paying the cost. The enemy had a field day with my head once I hit publish.

      Thank you for loaning me your shield and standing beside me in the war. And never apologize for writing a microblog over here on my space :) Love you!

  27. Anonymous

    This blog and Truth has spoken to Hannah and I in such a way, we both KNOW we will never be the same!! It sparked an eight hour discussion!!!! We have been is such a battle and have been questioning, questioning, questioning. We have seen Light(God revealing through your blog) and now recognize the crafty darkness that has been so subtle and stolen our mission……..God’s calling. We NEEDED this and God knew it!! Sister, we are both “packing” and hypervigilent for the evil one!! Thank you!!

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      I can barely find words to describe what this comment means to me. In the 24 hours since I published this post, I’ve been battling the enemy in ways I didn’t expect and hearing that these words, strung together in obedience, were used by God in your life, makes me know it was all worth it. God knew I NEEDED to hear from YOU so thank you. May God’s Light be the only thing that shines here.

  28. Michele Morin

    Wow, is this ever practical. I find myself weighing this issue again and again: Is this an obstacle to push through or is it a sign from God that I need to stop and re-group? Thanks be to God that we have His Spirit and His Word and His people to guide us when the question marks are more numerous than the exclamation points.

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      Oh, Michele! You said it so perfectly: More question marks than exclamation points. Leave it to a writer to paint a word picture with punctuation. This makes me smile.

      And this: Is it from God or is it just an obstacle? Yes.

      Thank you for being here blessing me with your words!

  29. Jan

    Christi, you have a beautiful way with words! I especially like number 4 in this article. Thank you for sharing and may God continue to bless you and your ministry.

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      Thank you so much, Jan! What an encourager you are to me. I love knowing what resonates with those who choose to let my words take up their time. Appreciate you beyond words!

  30. Alison [Life of Scoop]

    THANK YOU for deciding to post this incredibly wise and truth-filled article! The truth seeps from your words…and encourages my heart. The devil loves to be sneaky. I’ve felt it in my own life – through sickness, anxiety, emotional turmoil. But we serve a great and mighty God who has already claimed that victory prize! Thank you, thank you for sharing this strategy. We all need a little more truth in our lives. :) You’ve blessed me.

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      Wow. THANK YOU. Every.single.time I pour myself out like this, I feel like the enemy is whispering over my shoulder, “No one needs this. No one is going to read it. Why are you wasting your time?” I tell him to shut up, but when I hear from friends like you, it brings me strength and encourages my heart. I am so blessed that you wanted to take the time to leave a comment and offer filling words of life to my day. Thank you again!

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